fourteen thousand for the week
how many weeks have
you been tugging on your leash?
I rewrote your bio
a thousand miles of receipts
a life lived in airports
that’s the cost of living free
I can’t wait to see you
free from the hell of my wife
I can drown in the depths of a warm enclosure
I’m on my way to heaven
I knew your story was a lie
I didn’t mind
I knew the truth would let me down
I’m not here for realism
a common arrangement
a dopamine uptake
pure release
supplant my home
a permanent fixture
on all of my SIM cards
you’re a glass of napalm
no interaction
could ever replace this
yes, our time is up
I know
up in the penthouse
the centerfold exile
breaks a nail
it’s worse than death
I’ll pay for your implants
I’ll pay for your trips abroad
to fuck whoever you want
when I’m at a distance
you know I’m still with you
each time you swipe my card
no imperfection
could ever reduce you
yes, our youth is gone
I know
winter in Palm Springs
I know it takes effort
but try and smile
I hear you whisper to your friends
“God, I wish he’d hurry up and die.”
but I still want you
I know you’re scheming with your lovers
“Why won’t he just hurry up and die?”
but I still love you
Other lyrics by Street Sex:
COMING OF AGE
occupation: subterfuge trauma doesn’t justify your spousal abuse windowless office pessimistic view stripper sweat gambling debt reeking of booze why would you have …
GOING UP
I’m not at my desk at the moment I’m up on the roof my friends tell me I’ve landed the dream job but I’m looking for proof going up just never feels as good as it should …
HALF LAUGH
if you were ever loved if you are unloved life is a blessing when you’re undressing have a good time! laugh and you will find it’s a new way open up your mind and you can …
NEW BRAUNFELS
a rubber chicken, a dirty sock a house inside a broken clock the nightly visits, the morning ache your friends at school could not relate both your parents were dead …
PERPETUITY
I have been invisible for my entire life cropped out of the picture I wait for you outside but I will oblige you whatever you want if something of value changes hands …