Mmm, oh

I learned how to smile with tears in my eyes
How to survive while slowly dying inside
Gave too much love to people passing through
Till I forgot what love was supposed to do
I carry pain like it belonged to me
Oh, my heart break like a memory
But look at me now, I’m still standing here
After all these broken years
And I don’t need the world’s approval anymore
If they don’t understand me, that’s what closed doors are for

Stay when I’m hard to love
Not just when I’m giving you all of me
‘Cause women like me don’t come from comfort
We come from surviving everything
Love me when my mind gets heavy
When my nights get dark and messy
I’m not perfect, I never was
But nobody will love you the way I do
So if you want something honest
Something deeper, then just touch, mm
Take my scars and take my heart
And stay when I’m hard to love

I celebrate every part of myself now
Even the woman they judged back then somehow
‘Cause every version that I had to be
Led me back home to me
And honestly, I’m finally feeling good
The way I healed, so probably should
No more shrinking to make people stay
If they leave, let them walk away
I don’t need saving anymore
But your love feels safe to fall into

Stay when I’m hard to love
Not just when I’m giving you all of me
‘Cause women like me don’t come from comfort
We come from surviving everything
Love me when my mind gets heavy
When my nights get dark and messy
I’m not perfect, I never was
But nobody will love you the way I do, oh

So if you want something honest
Something deeper then just touch
Take my scars and take my heart
And stay when I’m hard to love

I made peace with my past
With the girl who begged love to last
Now I know my worth too much to ever settle for almost
Maybe I cry a little more these days
But at least now I don’t hide my pain
‘Cause strong women don’t become strong by luck
We become strong because life was worth

Stay when my smile ain’t shining
When my whole world feels like colapsing
When I’m overthinking at midnight
Trying to win another fight inside me
Be my calm when I feel chaos
Be my home when I feel lost
And I’ll give you every part of me that heartbreak couldn’t destroy
I’m not looking for somebody perfect, oh
I just want somebody true, oh
Someone who will still hold my hand
When the hard days come into view

So if your love is really different
If your forever isn’t just talk
Then let me be your woman
And I swear to God
I won’t let your heart break apart
Mmm, yeah mmm

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Stay When I'm Hard To Love

Mmm, oh I learned how to smile with tears in my eyes How to survive while slowly dying inside Gave too much love to people passing through Till I forgot what love was …