Starting to watch my parents get old
It’s one thing to worry, it’s another to know
I’m bearing witness to what awaits
Time’s lack of sympathy and my own fading
My body is a temple in decay
The upkeep, getting harder as I age
My youth is a dam that’s bound to break
I’m Judas, alternately I’ll betray
Myself with the boys and the drugs
Dig down deeper in the same hole that I dug
Thought I’d be smarter by twenty-three
And not still a martyr to my own misery
Martyr to my
I’m a martyr to my misery
Martyr to my
Martyr to my misery
And now I’m always kinda thinking about how I’m gonna die
Or who my mom was before a mother and a wife
And how nobody ever really gets enough time
Before the bronze of youth starts to oxidize
My body is a temple in decay
The upkeep, getting harder as I age
My youth is a dam that’s bound to break
I’m Judas, alternately I’ll betray
Myself with the boys and the drugs
Dig down deeper in the same hole that I dug
Thought I’d be smarter by twenty-three
And not still a martyr to my own misery
Sure, I’ve been trying hard to change myself just bit by bit
And to know part of me now is part of who I’ve been
I’m cutting off the dead weight, all of my dead ends
Everything must go when I mean everything
And if I’m swearing myself into total honesty
I’m still kinda scared of the real possibility
That the one thing that has always been wrong is me
And I can try to fix it, but it goes to tears
Martyr to my
I’m a martyr to my misery
Martyr to my
Other lyrics by Leanna Firestone:
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Confirmation Bias
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Emergency Contact
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Get Help
I haven’t ruled out this being an equal thing Or that you aren’t coming from a messed-up family But something’s definitely going on Something is …
Judas (Martyr To My Misery)
Starting to watch my parents get old It’s one thing to worry, it’s another to know I’m bearing witness to what awaits Time’s lack of sympathy and …